Monthly Archives: December 2003

sexuality is an innate difference

just read this… intresting read 4 a c0ld nyt…

Further tests suggest gay is hard wired in the brain

Sexuality is pre determined by the part of the brain that deals with desire, according to research that is set to stir up the “nature or nurture” debate once again.

According to a report in the Chicago Tribune, the University of Chicago has found that the centre of sexual feelings in the brain, known as the hypothalamus, is distinctly different in gay and straight men.

A study of 8 solely heterosexual and 8 solely homosexual men found that straight men have more activity in their hypothalamus than their gay counterparts, indicating that there is a physical and neurochemical difference between sexualities.

Researchers studied this part of the brain after it was revealed to control sexual feelings and desire in animal studies, the paper reports.

“Whether this neurochemical difference is the cause of, or a consequence of, or something that accompanies this kind of heterosexuality and homosexuality is yet to be determined,” the University’s Howard Moltz said.

“But it’s the strongest research I know to suggest that it might be hard-wired.”

Moltz says he is yet to study the difference between lesbians and straight women, but is keen to see if the difference is the same.

Recently, the issue of whether homosexuality is determined before birth has made headlines once again, with studies claiming to prove that there is a physical difference between gay and straight men.

This summer, a London study claimed that straight and gay men have different blinking reactions and that this proves that sexuality is an innate difference.

The University of East London studied the startle response to sudden loud noises, and found that sexuality led to different reactions.

Researchers said this proved that sexual orientation is “hard-wired” into the brain in foetal development.

The Sailor at Christmas

>The Sailor at Christmas
>(Author unknown)
>T’was the night before Christmas, the ship was out steaming,
>Sailors stood watch while others were dreaming.
>They lived in a crowd with racks tight and small,
>In a 90-man berthing, cramped one and all.
>I had come down the stack with presents to give,
>And to see inside just who might perhaps live.
>I looked all about, a strange sight did I see,
>No tinsel, no presents, not even a tree.
>No stockings were hung, shined boots close at hand,
>On the bulkhead hung pictures of a far distant land.
>They had medals and badges and awards of all kind,
>And a sober thought came into my mind.
>For this place was different, so dark and so dreary,
>I had found the home of a Sailor, once I saw clearly.
>A Sailor lay sleeping, silent and alone,
>Curled up in a rack and dreaming of his home.
>The face was so gentle, the room squared away,
>This was the United States Sailor today.
>This was the hero I saw on TV,
>Defending our country so we could be free.
>I realized the families that I would visit this night,
>Owed their lives to these Sailors lay willing to fight.
>Soon round the world, the children would play,
>And grownups would celebrate on Christmas Day.
>They all enjoyed freedom each day of the year,
>Because of the Sailors, like the one lying here.
>I couldn’t help but wonder how many lay alone,
>On a cold Christmas Eve out to sea, far away from home.
>The very thought brought a tear to my eye,
>I dropped to my knees and started to cry.
>The Sailor awakened and I heard a calm voice,
>” Santa, don’t cry, this life is my choice.”
>” Defending the seas all days of the year,
>So others may live and be free with no fear.”
>I thought for a moment, what a difficult road,
>To live a life guided by honor and code.
>After all it’s Christmas Eve and the ship’s underway.
>But freedom isn’t free and it’s Sailors & Marines who pay.
>The Sailor say’s to our country “be free and sleep tight,
>No harm will come, not on my watch and not on this night.
>The Sailor rolled over and drifted to sleep,
>I couldn’t control it, I continued to weep.
>I kept watch for hours, so silent, so still,
>I watched as the Sailor shivered from the night’s cold chill.
>I didn’t want to leave on that cold dark night,
>This guardian of honor so willing to fight.
>The Sailor rolled over and with a voice strong and sure,
>Commanded, “Carry on Santa, It’s Christmas, and All is Secure!”
>Honor, Courage and Commitment (Author unknown)


I’m really sad. I don’t want christmas to come nor the new year. It will just remind me that a year had passed and still no development happened to me. Im still the same stupid person that I am last year, stupid and an underachiever.

I wish that the holidays would never come and if it will, I wish I am never there to witness it.

Last year was blast, I wish but its not. Its all heartaches and sadness and me telling myself that it’ll be better. When will it be really better. When will I stopped convincing myself. It will never be better.

At least not for me.


wish up0n a star

saw this @…

danG! i dont have LoAd!!!!

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want a guitar though… kasi i have pik fr alice peac0k Cd w/c ive w0n fr chalk mag naman he he he…!!!!!!!

deeper me

Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder – individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder – individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder – individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder – individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder – individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder – individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder – individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder – individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder – individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder – individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

the person i am?

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Antisocial |||||||||||| 42%
Borderline |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 66%
Narcissistic |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Dependent |||||||||||||||| 62%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 46%

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making waves

1stly, this is history coz this is the 1st time that i wrote an entry at this time….of the night or is it day?

i should change my icon because i am not making waves…

i think i am making some trouble for some people he he…

i just woke up because its freakin cold… he he… no one can stop christmas or dry skin… and chapped lips…

it is dec. 1… yikkesss!

im also up coz i need to visit the toilet.. like right now…