the line of beauty

i attended a book club thingy last night…

it was weird… like what ive mentioned… were talking about the ‘the line of beauty” book. its a story of nick guest who is a young gay boy who lives w/ the faddens. the faddens are like richie rich and nick is a middle class guy. the story is basically the everyday lives of the faddens with nick and the high society people in the 80’s. Alan Hollinghurst, the writer use poetic words … thats why its like reading an LJ of an eglish guy in the past.

so its like reading an LJ gay entry nga. and the other girls there were like… oh the story is full of explicits and stuff and they find the story too weird… and i find it too normal…

bad nga ako eh cuz i told ’em that this is normal for me and they are like HUWATTTT!!!!

yun pala this book club circle are girls in a pretected environment… they dont even know what LJ is!!!! Luckily i was there to educate ’em he he…

in general, i had FUN shocking them w/ made up stories. hhheeee he he… im such a liar!!!!!!!!!

and i will do it again cuz its fun!!!! plus ill get free book again….

im absent cuz i have really really red eyes and it hurts… its not naman sore eyes cuz walang muta..

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last mo9nday naman my boss talked to me about the way i dress and the way i look. she is asking if i can wear make up. i have make up naman … i have lotsa make up nga eh… but the thing is i have ugly skin at the moment and i want to have facial muna and some derma therapy for it to get better…

things is all of my money is going to my commuting fare chuva and my credit card loans… so i dont have anything left for me to buy new dress and well… no money too to get my facial…. so basically… the conversation is her telling me how ugly i am…

and that is what im feeling right now… im freakin ugly… i think that one of the reason why im not at work is that i dont have anything decent to wear… i got my salary na but… sakto lang siya for credit card loan & my fare for the 2 weeks ot till the next payday…

plus im forever concious na of my looks… i cant work the same way na…. im okay pa naman with what im doing cuz im always busy and i tend to forget about some family money problems whan im at work…. now… all im thinking is im probably not making my bosses happy cuz im ugly…

you guys may say that … im so sensitive… but … its her way of saying it kasi… like im really really unpleasant …

it kinda hurts… well actually… it hurts like hell kasi i think im doing well naman job wise … cuz im like the purchasing department of the whole metropolis mall…

now … kalokohan as it may seem… im planning to leave na…

baka naman you have work for me…

email me naman.. kahit petty work lang muna … para lang i have income till i can get another decent job…

yun lang…

hayyyy….

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hey dalumat.. do you want to borrow my book na?????

2 thoughts on “the line of beauty

  1. girl_bot

    this entry made me sad. i don’t like your boss. your looks shouldn’t even matter so she should stop it! if she said that here in the US, you could’ve sued her!

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