stampede

i feel weird that everytime id see a crowd im scared that there might be an stampede…

ala lang…

went to baclaran yesterday … this is the 1st time in my life to go there on a wednesday and its full…. i can only squeeze meself till the door… thats the farthest that i got…

but there are TV’s and stuff so i can hear the mass clearly and i went out right up cuz like what ive said im ADD w/ church and im trying not to concentrate on the columns of the ceiling else ill forget that i went there to request something…

and im thinking what cant i request straight to God and why do i need to ask his mother to tell him when there are lotsa other people who is there to request something…

cant god handle the request on his own and he needs his mother to help him sorting the request????

nothing really…

at the end i realized that i dont really have the faith of the other people who gies there and its futile if ill continue…

i know somewhere in my heart that no matter what i do i cant get my request cuz… its just too impossible and ….

i wish im wrong… cuz if im right … OUCHness!!!!

to think that im only out of job for a month and im already anal… imagine people who been looking for ayear now…

life is cruel!

2 thoughts on “stampede

  1. iking

    HOW COME PEOPLE WILL JUST GO TO CHURCH KUNG MAY HIHILINGIN LANG? MYSELF INCLUDED, NO OFFENSE MEANT. KNOW WHAT? SABIHIN MO NA IPOKRITO AKO BUT AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE I WILL VISIT THE CHURCH EVERY SUNDAY GIVEN THE FACT NA MARAMI AKO HINIHILING BUT ALSO TO THANK HIM FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS EVEN THE SMALLEST THING NA BINIGAY NYA. THATS ONE WAY DIN KASI ON HOW I PAY RESPECT ON HIM, ASIDE FROM BEING GOOD KAHIT NA MAHIRAP AND MARAMING TEMPTATIONS. MAS MADALI MAGING BAD KESA GOOD BUT IT FEELS GOOD TO BE GOOD IN THE END.SORRY KUNG PREACHY AKO I JUST WANT TO BE GOOD, HEHEHE…
    BELIEVE ME KUNG ANO MAN PINAGDADASAL MO IT WILL COME TRUE MAGHINTAY KA LANG, I NEVER TRIED DOING NOVENAS KAHIT NOON, BASTA SA KIN VISIT THE CHURCH OK NA, BUT NOW IM DOING ONE SACRED HEART OF JESUS EVERY FIRST FRIDAY OF THE MONTH, MAY HINIHILING AKO I ADMIT BUT I ALWAYS ACCEPT HIS WILL NOT MINE. GOOD DAY……

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    1. pixiedusk Post author

      hey!

      no offense taken…

      i guess…. im 1 of those who will just go to church if im in dire need of stuff….

      kakahiya nga eh… but… but… i reckon… there will be ways wherein you will go back to church and to him….

      baka yun sa kin is the fact that i need him now…

      i envy people whos passioante about religion… whose passionate about god… cuz im not … nomatter how hard i try…

      or maybe… im just not trying hard enough that why my like sucks…

      i really really want to be close to him cuz my freinds are and they are… amazing…

      i will go now… im writing nonsense stuff already…

      nice to hear fr u tho…

      Reply

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