smoke gets in my eyes…

he he… i should be friggin sleepin cuz its a holiday but no im already up!!!!!! Smoke woke me up…. remember my uncle who would shout his lungs out and wake everybody in the middle of the night…

it turned out he found a new way to harass us… to cook at 3am using his old school stove… siga[bonfire].  This would bring smoke to my [and my sister’s] rooms and would cause suffocation. 

which is what im feeling right now… suffocated literally.

FUCK HIM!

I hate him… I cant understand why he’s doing this.. well i know that he hates my father but… but is he trying to kill me and my sister????

Whats frustrating is that we cant do anything cuz if we do… this whole thing would blow up…

im planning on living in a dorm near work for awhile but… i dont want to leave my family like this… suffering in my uncle’s hand…

he is a deranged man… we tried helping him once… when he punched their closet and got hurt cuz he punched the friggin mirror/glass… we accepted him in our house w/ his children but we cant seem to see any urge for him to heal himself.. he just wants to sulk in one corner and live in our behalf and were not sure if its helping him so we asked him to leave and fix his life…

and since then he is blaming us for all the bad things that happening to him…

..arGH!!!!

but what i know is that he is not happy that we are a WHOLE family who is helping each other.. i think that he envy my father for keeping the family inspite of the challenges… you know how hard life has been to me and my family… we lost a lot finacially and were still together… trying to fix life..

TOGETHER.

While his family … is broken…

i pity him but harassing us???????

i wish that hell stop this….

i pray that he will stop harassing us.. this will only lead to us hating him more… and the whole fammily hating each other wont stop…

i wish i can explain further but im just too frustrated and out of air to explain things…

its frustrating.. i want to cry… on a monday…

6 thoughts on “smoke gets in my eyes…

    1. pixiedusk Post author

      oh yeah tell me about it… but i cant of course tell him that he needs to visit a shrink or something… he would prolly twist my neck or something…

      mere sight of us will prolly make him puke… he envies my father for having a family like us.. if he only knows that we have issues too… its just that you dont talk about it out loud in the open for every neighbor to hear…

      you write it [them] in LJ he he

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