Monthly Archives: December 2008

i dont know what subject to give …

I am…. …. i dont know what to do.

I am jobless and my boss didnt give us anything. She fired all 12 of us and wont give us the right amount that weer suppose to be given.

I got zero centavos.

Thats last sept 25.

Its December now.

All my savings are gone for paying family loans and bills.

I have few pesos in the bank. And i mean few pesos.

Not even enough for a happy meal or kiddie meal.

Last last week i found a cellphone in a girls CR.

A high end phone.

i returned it to the owner. she is happy.

i applied for a job in Dubai.

the pay is small but its a sure company.

but i need to shell otu cash. today.

i dont have any money and im thinking maybe… maybe i should have kept teh cellphone….

i dont know what to do…

i need the job…

i need some cash

…. i want to… bang my head in the wall

but that wont solve anything… and i dont want to ruin a perfectly okay wall…. cuz i dont have money to repair it….

…. my heart… is in…. great pain…..

i am…. i want…. i dont know what to do….

fuck….

im not a bad person and i curse few times in a year….

and yet i am being punished….

and xmas is coming…

haha…….

… but i have nowhere to run for help

…. i am controlling my breathing so that my heart would stop feeling … but it wont stop…

i just want to …..

… i dont know…..

life is really cruel to me.

i hope life is treating you well….

sorry…. i just need to let this out….

where can i go to …. feel okay…..

are there… really… hope…. god….

if theres a god.. where is he .. been calling him since 2pm…

why is he still not answering me…

is he busy?

if you can reach him please tell him that im in dire need.. of him…

& if he cant give me cash can he give me peace instead….