you know how when youre a wife you have this responsibility to attend your husband’s xmas party and be pretty and dainty and stuff?
i want to but the thing is lately i feel really really really fugly… fat and ugly…. beat that!
and my skin is not reacting well to the weather… and i just started taking pills.. all in all im not in the mood to go out and be seen with my husband…
but do i have the heart to tell him that i dont want to go?
i dont want to go!
i dont like xmas!!!!
can i just hide in our room till my body recovered from giving birth and this new weather and this new emotion????
my husband doesnt read my LJ
I am in UK now and im struggling hard… our dog just died and i feel more sadder… my husband is making me feel at home but its not just yet working.. i appreciate his effort….
baby was diagnosed with hisrchsprunf disease and he needs operation… surgery… but we cant afford it in manila…. our plan… me & hubby was to go to UK when im ready.. prolly next year… or later…
i reckon i should be thankful
but because my son needs medical attention everything changed… the plans were bypassed and we came in here earlier than planned…
its cold and my skin is drying out to the point where im like a snake shedding skin…
i feel so fat & ugly.. i cant sweat…. how can i with the negative temp….
but i reckon i should be thankful… my baby had his biopsy surgery last month and were going back to the hospital after xmas….
but why do i still feel sad