Caption this please =)
I was walking leisurely from Tesco to our house when I saw an envelope with my name on it. It could be for any Samantha but I chose to own that envelope because well I want to.
You used to kiss me on my lips, Simon.
As i write this areolas are itchy and red (TMI Sorry) and I have so many eczema patches all over my body. Its the sign for me that winter is coming and Autumn is saying/said goodbye. And I am officially MISERABLE.
I have this hate in me when Winter is here. A blanket of sadness and depression covers me. The lack of warmth and sunshine is getting on me.
Im am so tired of being at war with this weather, been here for 3 years. I will probably stay some more. If that's the case I should be thinking how can I turn things around. How can I be happy in winter? How can I be my own Little Miss Sunshine when the weather is not? How can I make my school runs more bearable. How I can be at peace with myself and with Jack Frost!
Ill start with going to the doctor to ask what to do with the eczema. Hopefully the doctor is a girl so that the areola wont be shy. And the misery will be gone with some ointment.
Then I will find things that's nice in winter! If I can. Ill start now. Winter is nice bcuz of Christmas! True I wont get any gifts but who can stop Christmas??? I can play my fave cheesy xmas song non stop (Last Xmas mwahaha) and bug the neighbors with it (Fun right?!)
I'll take pictures of the trees who are feeling colder than me cuz they cant find blankets that will fit them! Ha Bless the trees!
Ill drink HOT CHOCOLATE NON STOP TOO!!!!
If I feel cold Ill hold my son's hand and walk with him cuz hes got the warmest hand ever. Kids they have their own boiler inside their bodies!
And if anything else fails, Ill get free hugs from my family. That would work for now and I have the whole winter season to think it over.
Bring it on =)
**Pictures taken all over Bristol City
I left the Phlippines before any of this happened.
A first cousins daughter got pregnant at 14. I gasped at this and yet this is normal in our area. Still a child getting pregnant. Some of my aunts got married & pregnant at 14,15,16. I am (and my sister) is considered TOO old to get married and to get pregnant after all.
She left school when she got pregnant.
She gave birth, this child. A baby with a baby. The husband is as young as her. Apparently, the girl would always go out with friends and leave the baby to the husband.
After all the mother is young and this is the age where you go out with friends. Discover things. Enjoy life.
When I gave birth at 35, my husband was here in the UK. EVerytime the baby cry and I am alone I cry too. The only thing that keeps me sane are the people who visit me and small cousins who cheer me up. I am 35. Supposedly mature and this is all too hard, parenthood.
Now I can only imagine how it is to be 15, a young father and a baby crying nonstop. And your partner is out and you can picture things in your head on whats shes up to.
The young father hanged himself. Suicide.
I don't personally know him and yet I am hurting.
I can not and wont and I don't have the right to blame my cousins daughter. She is a child.
This event is tragic.
And the saddest part is that there is a baby involve.
There are probably happy relationships that started early. Couple started at 15 whose relationship withstand the test of time. But I haven't seen or heard of one, yet.
There are so many issues that are involve in this tragedy. Contraception, Sex Education (which is taboo in my country), Abortion rights (another topic that no one wants to talk about) and Post natal depression (mother and father side) support. None of these issues are a priority in my country. We just suffered from #Haiyan and so many problems are being tackled. Sadly none of them are these. But when will they tackle these mentioned issues? Because they are there since I was a kid. Before me. Hopefully they will give time and politician will touch this soon. Because it is needed.
For now condolence to the family of that boy. I don't know you but I am praying for peace for you and your family. I lost a lot of people in the past and it is painful. It is a place that I dont want to experience because I dont know if I can handle it.
Been joining a lot of competition hoping, praying I will win but haha! im not winning anything. I wonder whats the winning formula? What are they looking for?
What am I doing wrong? I am giving my heart in my every post and well I guess my story is not the best =(
with that I resolve to give up on it for now and concentrate on just blogging about my mundane life =P
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