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Half term should be the time for the little one to enjoy the outside world right. Which is sad as my son is sick since Wednesday. SInce we are just inside the house and I think he is beginning to feel cabin fever he asked his Dad if we can go out even for a few minutes. Even if my husband needs to work he gave in as my son is really really sluggish and he reckon some fresh air and rain would help him recover.

We went to a lake with few ducks. Just us and its so peaceful. He wont go down but I can finally see a wee bit of smile from him which I havent seen the whole day. Amazing what the outdoors could really do. Sadly it started to rain and we need to go home because David my husband needs to go to work. He promised tho that the next day we will go out again for a wee bit longer.

Fast forward to today!

He feels a wee bit better and his perkiness pick up in the afternoon. A bit of Calpol probably helped as well. So when his Dad arrived we went out as promised. We went here to play and so that David can do some geocaching too.

I dont know what happened cuz he suddenly just went from gloomy to sunny! He saw the playground and suddenly the fever is gone! And he is climbing those ropes like a pro. Husband did a bit of geocaching while we stayed in the playground for some more playtime. Sadly he didnt find the item he is looking for which is in away nice cuz then we need to go back soon!

Amazing what outdoors can do to a kid. He is still sick when we went home but not as much as the last days and I am thankful for that. Hopefully we will get to enjoy whats left of the half term. We dont have plans but I know we will go out again. Because who needs nature heals!

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Is there something that you want to say to someone but you just cant say it because there are certain balance that you want to retain and you can break that balance that why you are keeping your mouth shut even if … if you want to share it. Really really really want to share it.

I have one. Deep dark secret that only my husband knows. And I want to share it to my sister. But as I said I dont want to break the balance.

I dont even know what equilibrium I am particularly talking about but .. I am keeping that secret to myself and husband promise not to tell anyone as well till we die.

But something came up. Something just popped out of our chat that made me .. think that maybe just maybe she (my sister) is ready for this … that I can also trust her that she wont tell this to anyone. I didnt tell still.

The next day.

She was telling me again of her worries and that made me realized that she is ready. I emailed my story to her. She said she believes me and she actually have this idea thats its about that subject. Yes I finally confess to my sister of that secret. And its the best feeling in the world that she believes me. That all that matters. And that is my word of the week: confession.


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First Dentist Visit

He was clingy today when he woke up. He doesnt want Daddy and would say I want my Mummy.

Then and there I knew something is wrong. No fever but he is sluggish. Today is also the first time that we would go and have his teeth checked. Before he would have schedule but he wont even bother to sit on the dentist chair. But brushing his teeth few weeks ago I saw a cavity and I mean business today.

Its a long walk so we head of early. And he is not his usual happy self. This is when I was thinking can he handle the dentist?

We arrived there and he is okay. Excitedly waiting for his name to be called.

When he was called he was scared but he would follow every orders and direction. He just sat on the chair. Lied down. Didnt get scared or cried when the chair went up. Opened his mouth. And then he just waited there for some more instruction! I am so proud. I am stressed all morning thinking he will throw massive tantrum cuz he doesn't feel better but here he is so matured about everything.

Even when the doctor applied those filling for his cavity. He just sat there. You can tell that he doesn't like the taste of the filling but he is not complaining.

I hugged him really tight and told him that I am so pleased & proud and I think he is proud of himself too.

Technically his first dentist visit and a successful one at that!

I am so proud of you my Sebastian =)


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Gestational Diabetes


For the longest time in my pregnancy I was fighting this diabetes. Eating healthy is the way to go and exercising while pregnant is how I manage to keep my sugar level at bay. Every after meal I religiously test myself. Sometimes when I eat something sweet I would really really really feel guilty and would just drink water to try to make the sugar level balance.

It got to a point that even if I am not eating something with sugar that my level is still high that my OB resorted me taking, injecting insulin. No matter how thin and small that needle is its still hurt to have to inject myself every night.

Somehow I am so relieved that i gave birth a month early. This will save my son from being affected by the diabetes.

The effect of this GD is not limited to me. Because I have this my son has a chance of getting diabetes. The good part is that we can already make him eat healthy this early to prevent this from affecting him.

My one way of preventing him from having sugar is me breastfeeding him. Which is what I did till I can. I have been breastfeeding him till he is 2.

We have a no-sweets/chocolate rule in the house too. None of us drinks cola or squash. All water and milk.Eventually I gave in to juice because I found out that my son poo better when he drinks this. But I dilute it with water.

Somewhere between him being 2 and how he is going to be 4 I let it go. He is now eating crisp, chocolates and a lot of sweets. And the cavity in his teeth is the proof of this. The cavity will be sorted out tomorrow as we have a dentist schedule. Hopefully the dentist will be keen on checking him as the last one gave up when my son wont open his mouth. No effort to lure him to open his mouth at all. He just gave up. I would of course request a new dentist.

And I have to go back into being a strict mother when it comes to food. My husband being a grazer is not helping with this. He eat snacks like cray in between meals and my son (& me) is starting to be one too. There is just to much junk in our pantry. I am not blaming him for this of course. I am taking full responsibility. When my son turned 3 he became a fuzzy eater. He would not eat at all and this kills me as a mother of course. Where is he getting the sustenance so I would give him sweets and crisp to give his body wee bit nutrients. Not healthy but food nonetheless.

This fuzzy eating also made me spoon feed him. Till now that he is nearing 4. One of the skeleton in my mothering closet.

This is not all about him too. I have gained 5K since I stopped breastfeeding him. Pants that I can use before is donated to the charity shops and I am now wearing buggy jeans just so I can hide my massive legs that broke every old jeans that I have. I of course can really diet if I want too. I remember testing this product and I lost some weight. But it is pricey so I cant maintain such diet. After testing the product I went back to my old weight. Probably heavier.

My choice of poison are those M&Ms and oreos that are usually on sale at supermarket. But what really kills me is Nutella. I can eat those big jars in one sitting. If can build something out of the jars of Nutella that I consumed I can probably already build a mansion.

Its like I have an amnesia! That I forgotten about my Gestational Diabetes! What ever happened to my brain?????? But I am depressed too and I am missing home and I am alone in mothering.

I will try to forgive myself for that. What can I ever do but to forgive myself. Because how can I start with what I want to do if I will stay blaming myself.

Why did I remember? I read this blog.

Then it hit me that I have this and I should be doing something about it! So starting today I am cleaning up my act. I am starting with me and then I would need to be an example to my son so that he would follow and eat healhty too. I would of course ask my husband to eat healthy as well. I would probbaly get him to snack on fruits and veggies instead.

This is so hard. Just 2 hours ago while we were out I saw so many sweet stuff on sale at the high street. So cheap!

But I am happy to say that I was able to not buy & eat them. I also am clean today from any sweets and we ate eggs and I just ate white.

I am going to take this by the day. Day starting now.


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Pastillas De Leche (No Cook)

I got hold of a powdered milk for the first time here and ideas of what to do with suddenly flowed in my head. I am planning on doing 2 things initially which are all desserts. Pastillas de Leche and Polvoron. I tried doing this first as I know my son can help me as its no cook and so easy too! My son Sebastian helped me and he loves eating this.



2-1/2 cups of powdered milk
200 ml condensed milk

greaseless paper
japanese/tissue paper


  1. Mix the condensed milk & powdered milk together. Blend well.
  2. Shape into cylinders and roll in sugar.
  3. Wrap in parchment paper. If you want you can use colored japanese/tissue paper as a second wrapper for when you want to sell or give this dessert a gift =)


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Take Me To The Beach

It was raining in the last days. Today tho it is different. It is not sunny but not as cloudy so we ventured out to the beach and what do you know its full of people! Also the usually muddy beach has water cuz of the high tide making the beach seem to look better (in my eye). The weather became brighter. Still no sun but bright enough for a photo. But then my camera is at home. About 2-3 minutes away from the beach. I told my husband and son that i will run back home to get the camera. I left them playing with the sand. Near the promenade. When I got back they are far far away. And my son lost his pants and is already playing in the water.



When hes leg got a bit too cold, my husband took him on his shoulders and we walked at the shore. Suddenly the sun is out. So we walk some more. We dont know till when this sun would last so we are going to take advantage of it. We stayed outside till we can handle it cuz we dont know what tomorrow (weather) will bring.



Pocketful of Sunshine

As a person in general I can consider myself emo. Like everything is a drama! Hence, Glimmer of Hope as my blog name. I am probably that gloomy girl you saw walking on the sidewalk on a sunny day. Wearing black all over. Wallow is my middle name. And I am wondering how ever did I get to have a pocketful of sunshine for a child?  Here he is enjoying the slide even when he is sick. Always a smiley face! He falls (a lot) and he just dust it off, stand up and smile again attitude.

I am not complaining of course. I am so glad that he's got a smile every day even when he is sick or is falling. His smile is so contagious too, his quirkiness makes me grin and no matter how hard I try to fight the colors that he bring its slowly creeping into me. And one day, maybe one day his happiness will rub off of me and the next time you will see my walking on the sidewalk I will be prancing & hopping cuz I am happy.

**cue in that Pharell's song here**