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Lets Get The Party Started

I am so jealous of my son's social calendar! It is full. He attended a party at Puxton Park with his Dad and he was awesome there. Playing non stop with his pre-school friends. I think that he and his best friends really miss each other and I was told that they are inseparable!

And we then went to another party of a friend. Its her daughter's 4th brithday and we went there straight after his tennis. I was expecting a kid who would be grumpy but he is a champion! Joining every game and winning new friends and the dance competition!

And here he is with his competition loot!

My friend was surprised to see him being so game! She knows him as a shy and a bit tantrumy from before but now it all changed.
She said my son is now so sociable and mature! Her comment made me so proud of him. I think that he really got over the tantrumy stage and is now enjoying the company of other kids. Of course his pre-school and school helped a lot as well.

And because he is such a nice kid in parties he has got more invites now.

Whew! Life of a party boy is a bit tiring =P

xx

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Despicable Me

I think my son (and his Dad) sees me as the villain of his/their life. I mean I am always the one who kills the joy. Like this last Saturday where he is chasing his Dad inside the store and I stopped him from running after his father. KJ (killjoy) I know. Or I when last Monday his Dad brought home a DVD of the How To Train Your Dragon and I have to remind them (every so often) to go up and sleep already as his got school the next day. Or I am always telling him to eat his food, dont run on the sidewalk, change your school clothes before you play your lego and so on and so forth.

What he is not seeing is that that day when he was running inside the store. He almost hit his face on the corner of a display table. If I hadnt stop him the corner would have hit his face and there will be blood. I just grabbed him the right time. THE RIGHT TIME I am telling you otherwise he is going to get hurt. I am so mad and so scared at that time that I told him off after we got out of the store. He doesnt see how much I am scared of him getting hurt. What he saw is me stopping him from having fun from running and me telling him off. Oh Sebastian you almost hit that corner. If you can only see and hear how much my heart almost burst of fear. If you can only.

I am sorry if I have told you off or that if my voice is a bit loud that minute. My heart is still recovering from the fear of your getting hurt and I just dont know how I can forgive myself if you hit that corner.

You will see me as the villain here but theres never a moment when I dont want you to have fun. If I can only give you all your heart desires to play and to run I will. But there are proper places to do these things, proper time.

That incident never left my mind. Am I harsh for telling him off? I should probably waited till I am more relax before talking to him. So many should've in my brain. Last January I ask my husband if I can go home as nothing good is happening to me here. He will let me go home but I can never bring my son. So I stayed. I can never leave my son of course. He is my life and joy. Now I am thinking if my son will be better off without me. Because I am the villain of his life.

But thinking about me being far from him is just heartbreaking. So here I stay with my son as a villain in his life.

Villain is my word of the week.

xx

And then the fun began...

School Run Things

I am so amaze on how my son can see wonderful things that I would have otherwise miss. As a mother I am always thinking of schedule that we need to follow and my eyes are on that goal (to go home after school run, to do chores and for my son to rest after a long and tiring day in school). Its like I have blinders so nothing can distract me from those goals.

But there are so many small things that are beautiful that you can only see if you would just stop and try to find them. Like this 2 furby toys that are just sunbathing in the seafront. Who would have thought that they travelled far from their house to see the view and bask on the sun. My son is the one who found them. And we have created so many stories as to why they are there. Who brought them (did they really walk?) and how are they gonna go home.

About 100meters away from home he looked up and saw an arrow pointing back at the sea. When I looked up I am so in awe of how yes there is really an arrow shaped cloud in the sky!

And few meters away from our house is this store that sells Christmassy things. He loves that Penguin. He suddenly have a fascination with them because of this mall trip.

Simple things right up your (mine) noses but beautiful ones that you will not see if you will not stop. Children's eyes, they have this magic in them that sees this wonderful details that the world brings.

Our school run walk is never dull and gray.

School Run ColoursCountry Kids from Coombe Mill Family Farm Holidays Cornwall

Christmas Wish

In my country if you are working you can get a mandatory payment in addition to your salary in December (or earlier) and its called 13th month pay. This will help with the Christmas spending. A lot of times I get would buy something major like a TV, or an expensive gadget or an appliance that I want but is too expensive for a normal month. I also have lots of godchildren that are expecting something little when they visit me.

In here we dont get anything. And well I am jobless.

Its been really hard for us lately and when cold months would arrive we have to scrimp some more and theres no more budget for Christmas.

And at times I am thinking if I ignore it, if I dont acknowledge it it wont bother me.

But its hard. When I read other blogs its there. When I do school run I can see flyers and posters even in my son's school. Christmas is coming.

And when we went to the mall to relax ( and not buy anything) its there. The massive Christmas decoration. The pretty lights, the bright balls, the red coffee paper cups and the festive air.

This is my son's 4th Christmas on earth. Since his 1st Christmas I have nothing for him. As I am jobless and I cant really ask for money from anyone when I know that money is scarce during these times hence I never had a chance to buy and give him any gift.

He saw this in the mall. You know that penguin in the ads. He loves it. We have to literally drag him out of there. Out of Monty.

I wish I can give him something. I wish I can give him Monty. Or a litle Lego toy. A magazine. I wish one day he will say

'Mommy I want a Monty can we buy one?'

instead of

'Mommy I want a Monty can we ask Nain to buy it for me?'

Because you know it hurts  that your son doesnt run to you when he wants something. I dont have anything against my in-law and I am so glad that she give my son what he wants and desires. Just sucks to be me.

xx

When we went out of the mall he seemed to have forgotten about Monty and just enjoyed looking and seeing the rides, the lights and happy people outside.

I wish theres a real Santa and I can ask Santa for a job or maybe just that Monty toy. And I will give it to my son.
My son had been good this year. He's doing a lots of things that is out of his comfort zone. Trying things that he is scared of. And being just a good boy. I want to acknowledge that and reward him with a token.

But there is no Santa. =(

xx

And then the fun began...
Super Busy Mum

Participate

We have been busy a bit lately in school. The parents are more invloved lately. I started attending a wee bit of a class to be aware of what my son is learning in school now and how I can help to continue his learning at home. I really enjoy and in awe of how much the school is making sure that the parents knows how to support learning.

Last Monday I assisted with the other parents on walking the kids to the library. It was fun in spite of the rain. The kids' spririts are up and no rain can bring it down. They read books and were introduce to how library works. My son & I usually stay in there before so he knows his way around as so with the other kids who we know from outside school cuz we have been playing with the in the library's playgroup.

And we are going to have another session of how to help with phonics.

And in support to the Children In Need campaign they will have a onesie in school day! And my son is so excited of that. He will be wearing his minion onesie and I know it is going to be very very fun for him!

I am an outsider a lot of times in this country and I have written a lot about that. Mostly because of my own fault in not joining and attending events. Blogging related included because I am too shy. But when of course it is needed for my son's development shyness be gone and I will join and get involved in the best way that I can.

Participate is my word of the week but I have a feeling that it will be my word of the school year days.

The Reading Residence

An Autumn School Run

Usually our seafront is gray and brown. When the tide is high the water is brown and when the tide is low its just mud all over. Especially lately when it started raining everyday. Yesterday it was different though. The sun is shining, the wind is cold but soft and the water soft blue. The best color that I have seen our beach since we arrive here 3 years ago.

Sadly since its sunny too me phone cam is not getting the best of the color. But I think that I have gotten a bit of the blueness of sea.

So when I picked my son up from school I told him that we are going to walk in the sand. We usually dont do this as its muddy but today its dry and special as the water is in its bluest color.

So we sat on the benches and we just looked at the sea while my son eat some snacks. And tried basking in the autumn sun while admiring the sea so blue!

I would like to apologized for the blurry photo. I wish I gave this day more justice by getting nicer photo but I werent.

**UPDATE Nov. 20, 2014: And just to show you how its brown on usual days, here is the beach today.

We are feeling it already too. The season will change. Its going to be darker and colder and maybe there will be snow or maybe some more rain.

But we make sure that the gloomy sky wont make our life gray too! We sometimes always bring our own colors!

xx