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listen to me whine….

I become addicted to facebook.  It’s the nicest thing ever, I mean you can buy people and own them just as long as you got points and you have monsters like vampires, werewolf and a friggin slayer!

 

COOL!

 

So I forgot LJ in a while.

 

The people you met there can sometimes overwhelm you.  they look guapo  and they are the bomb.

 

But I don’t have much Filipino friend in facebook.  My friends are all busy with real life working and feeding their families and me well…

 

Facebook is an escape cuz real world is mean.  I am ugly but in there some [only some mind you guys] appreciates my nose… my eyes & my braces.

 

Until last night.  There was a guy there, a  fellow Filipino.  I was really really happy to see him.  I drop by his page and message him telling im happy to see fellow Filipino.

 

And he dropped by mine… using cuss words and telling me I am old and I look like many pacquiao and putang ina raw ako.

 

And I was shock.

 

And I cried.

 

And I can regain my self respect up to this moment.

 

I believe he iwill graduate from college this summer.

 

He said that he doesn’t normally say cuss word but when he saw my profile he cant help but blurting cuss words out.

 

So how can you go back to normal after that.

 

Some friends told me not to mind him… im trying to but how can you ignore such bluntness.

 

Words hurt.

 

And it can also kill.

 

Cuz when I read that message I feel like I died.

 

And I cant regain life.

 

Up until now.

 

I want to go to him and punch him for making my fantasy a reality.  Reality where people are mean to ugly, old and the different.

 

He is young yes.  But at 21? Youth is not an excuse for someone to act childly.  To act mean.

 

I

 

I am now leaving my facebook and I don’t know.

 

I

 

I am lost.

 

I am dead actually.

 

I need a hug.  Like a real hug.

 

And I need to stop crying now cuz ive been crying since last night.

 

I am sorry for being weak but I just don’t … don’t get to be ciursed at.

 

But I promise that ill be stronger after this.

 

And I promise to stay out of facebook for awhile… or maybe forever.