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First day of Pre-school

Dear Sebastian,

This is the first time that ill write a post for you to read. Or maybe i did already but mom's brain is just too shabby.

You my little boy Little started school last Tuesday, Sept 3ish me thinks.

And you were good and I left you and you're super happy that I asked myself am I a bad mom and he is so happy to get rid of me???? Its chaotic these nurseries.  Kids running like crazy and this is my excuse for not taking any pictures of you on this milestonic day.  A thing that i'll probably dread my whole life.

I picked you up and give you food and twas like nothing epic happened to you.

The next day was ok too.  You said you are walking and I made a mental note that what it really means is that Ill carry you all the way and you will just walk to pick some fowers on the pavement.  Massive mistake on my part.. on my arm part.

and then.. you bawled your eyes out nd you dont want me to leave you.  Is it okay to admit that I felt relieved.  Whew! That was close.  Mommy intuition kicked in.. he didnt had a nice day? Was he bullied by the other 3 years old? Is he sick? What? What? What?????

When I arrived home just so you know I have gazzilion stuff to do like wash the dishes, shoo the bird on the terrace, clean their poo, shoo them some more and stuff.  I werent able to do them cuz I am thinking of you worried.

I dont know what to do ben.

Its .. your not the only one who is having a separation anxiety and its worse cuz I am not allowed to bawlover to express it.

I set off early to fetch you buying kinder egg surprise to give as a reward to you.  I promised to lessen your chocolate intake but this are those moments that needs some chocolates.

You look normal when you went out… holding a box of smarties.  I felt bad cuz someone  beats me into giving you a rewards. Oh well.

Another day for us.

Daddy bought you a big pack of MnM's and i didn't give you a lot cuz of my promise (not to give you much chocolates).

Day 3.  You woke up really really really late.  Just 2 hours (Less actually) before we needs to go and your super duper sluggish.

I gave you all fruits as its the only easy food to eat when were hurrying up and you kept on sayng No Mommy No School!

Gosh I wonder when I started saying that cuzits too early to be hearing from you.

You are still cooperative.  Climbing that red creaky pram (my arm part has learned their lesson) and while were on our way you kept on saying … No school mommy. Or was it mummy?

I felt bad again cuzI know how one feels when they are being forse to go to school.

But you are 3ish.

You are not yet doing calculus so I would like to think that this is separation anxiety still.

I have to lure you in.  You dont want to go in.  Part of me is again proud that you are standing your ground but baby .. this is life.  And I am no just saying it to you but me as well.  We have to do this.

If I an only just make you stay home forever I will but you hve to learn how to share, you have to learn how to say blue in polish, you have to learn how to tidy up better and you have to learn that from now on you are really going to do these things that you dont want cuz…. you have too.

I miss you already and its still like an hour till your release and im already excited to walk back to get you.

We'll get over this together.

One day you will go there and non chalantly go & Ill worry again if its me being a bad mom/mum.

if its helps…. tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!! YEy!


Almost a Fashion Blog Entry


me and hubby are trying to do a fashion blog and im dressing up… yep that picture ^ thats me dressed up already hehe.. hes suppose to take pictures of me wearing diff stuff .. (more like 3 dresses ..hehe i dont have much) and i’ll try to do a fashion post here.

but my son is soooooooo cranky and he wont left me go even if we give him ipad…

so the fashion blog try is not successful.. but ive got lots of hugs from my son…

Goodbye Mommy Kitty

Our house is like a menagerie. We have lots of dogs. cats, turtles, (before we even have) birds and rabbits. Neighbors and relatives who have pets who cant afford to feed them would give their pets to us and well we cant say no.

She is a white perky dog when she arrive… her fur is thick and she is nice especially when you look at her eyes. her tail is cut short but it wiggles like shes always on redbull.

I was thinking who would want to giveaway a dog this cute and expensive looking. It turned out.. while theres a construction in the ex-owners house.. Kitty ( we names her that cuz she looks like a kitty cat) jump on an open fire which gave her burned body. Her wounds still fresh when we got her.

Shes a fighter to have lived an accident.

My mother liked her so much. She does her work. Bark on starngers, wiggle her tails when we arrive home and she gave birth to gazillions of other cute puppies.. neighboprs would always ask if she gave birth and they would ask for her babies.

Her beauty tho scarred is famous in our street.

We kept some of her babies… Juanito, Maru, Mighty.. there are lots of babies who died but.. all of them are special to us.

She is special to us and the other dogs cuz shes the only female… them other dogs wants her when they are hot and no else…

She kills… beneath that angelic facade is a fierce dog that kills enemies… she kills gigantic rats and she display them whenever she killed one..

I have to admit that once he probably even killed a kitten probably mistaking it to a rat.

Or she is just that fierce.

She started not eating last week… initially she would only eat .. like meat..soft and tasty.. then she would just drink water…

then this morning…. beside her hubby Benson… My mother founde her dead.

This is where I am now crying…

When Im still preggy with my son… she is preggy too. We gained weight together.. we both hated the hot weather… we shared cold water to quench our thirst.. she gave birth ahead of me and her babies cries got me ready to mine….

Shes an example.. she guards her babies like … shes ready to kill anyone who will touch them…

I am not at home… when she died and it made me more sad that I am not with her when she left…

I am so mad at her for not waiting for me to be there ..why are they not waiting for me.. why are they dying when im gone…

Why do pets have to die?

Why is it too painful to lose them even when you are near them or far?

Its so painful.. I want my kitty….

I have to stop crying cuz my son is … looking at me worried… I dont know if I will let him have pets cuz.. cuz its just so sad and painful to lose them

Before I go.. Goodbye Mommy Kitty. See u.. when i see u…


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